In the midst of my pain and sadness
I need you.
Through my fear and failures
Through my past PAINFUL past that still comes back to haunt me like a thief in the night
When depression overtakes me and the burdens of life swallow my soul
I need you.
From the depths of despair that holds me ransom to the valley of desperation and defeat.
In the midst of chaos and when I feel like I cannot take one more breath.
I need you.
I need YOU, Jesus.
But why do you seem so silent?
Why do you seem so far away?
You said you would never leave me.
You said you would never forsaken me.
But why does it feel like you are not even here?
The loneliness eats away every fiber of my being and my soul feels crushed.
My mind is foggy and I feel confused.
I am tattered and worn.
I feel like I am drowning.
Don't let me drown.
Please don't let me drown.
Be near me Lord.
Save me.
Breathe LIFE into this empty soul.
Fill me with your love and presence.
Quench these dry bones and fill my cup.
I want to feel.
I want to feel alive again.
Revive me.
Renew me.
Make me new.
Heal me.
Rescue me.
Break the silence
and come fill me up again.
Preaching to myself here...
Been battling with a lot of things. And I am not going to lie. I am not perfect. Nobody is. But life sometimes takes you by the horns and says "NOPE. YOU aren't in control."
I normally try to make the best of every situation, but sometimes I just feel so defeated.
So degraded and so unvalued.
I understand it. The enemy's purpose in life is to make me MISERABLE.
But I will refuse to live that way.
I will not let death overtake me.
But I am not going to lie.
IT IS HARD.
But I am doing my best.
But I have to remember that.....
As imperfect as I am
He still loves me the same.
Humans are not perfect. They hurt you. They upset you. They will fail you.
But God NEVER will.
Remember that promise....
REMEMBER that.
God is always ALWAYS there....
Always.
